"The Journey Is the Reward"

What's the easiest way out? I feel tightly tied to something unforeseen. It was all a trial at first but now, it seems that things are getting me suffocated and I seek air from outside. If I could only see the blueprint of the entirety, it will surely not be like this. However, life seems to be really this unfair and unpredictable. Once your there, the only option you have is to be there and slowly find the easy way out. Unfortunately, there is no easy way out. It's certainly like a traffic of thoughts and consequences that go along with the previous choice. There is no going U-turn. It's all a journey. But even if there is such a turn, even that is owned by the journey itself. At the end, "the journey is the reward".

I Am Truly Leaving Now

I could not think much of things that I need to do these days. I feel paralyzed although I know that the homecoming celebration to which I am partly responsible is fast approaching. This may be an opportunity for me to really think and discern on the real reason why I decided to take a leave from the seminary. A lot of people ask me why I continue to stay in the seminary when in fact I have decided to take a year of regency. Indeed, this is an extraordinary arrangement when normally, regents really leave the comfort of the seminary and try life "outside". Well, I am here for a valid reason and rational, in fact. Nevertheless, after the celebration what's next? It's time to decide. If anyone just try to read this blog, then they'll know my decision hidden from many. I am truly leaving the corners of the seminary this time and live life out there. I hope, always hope, that this is also the will of God for me.

The Pathway or the Darkness?

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I Wish You Died Just Before May 2010 Election

How I wish the death of President Cory Aquino could be so fresh just before the 2010 election. I can genuinely feel the spirit of democracy that hovers the Philippines these days of mourning over Tita Cory. Her death is paradoxically a rebirth of the freedom and democracy that Filipinos once experienced in 1986. I can truly sense freedom now. Even if I do not go out into the streets, seeing and hearing the media is more than enough for me to be convinced that each Filipino has that utter hope in a new Philippines. How I wish we could retain this spirit up until the nearing election. It is true that feelings are neither right nor wrong but I think sometimes there can be an exception to that belief. At the height of emotions that we Filipinos feel right now, there in the deepest recesses of our conscience, we want to, once and for all, choose the best leader we want to have in the next years. It can be true to take part of our feelings when we decide. May this passing away of Tita Cory, the icon of Philippine democracy, make a difference in our "bruised country."